J. [Carswell?], Augusta, to M. Sinclair, [Co. Down?].
Augusta 26th June 1823 My dearest Margret [Margaret ?] I expected, ardently expected a letter from you long ere this - In fact I began to fear you have made some other more happy person the object of your affection - and that person whoever he may be who is fortunate enough to gain your esteem I consider happy indeed Such however was my expectation of receiving a letter from you, long before this time containing your assent to unite your destiny with mine - that I am at length wearied waiting for your reply ; and I again lift my pen, to ask you whether you ever want to see me or not. It is my dear M [Margaret ?] yourself and only yourself I want, I care not for fortune ,had you twice as much ; but if our parents require penny for penny, I will exhibit to them two for one ; and property your for and - if it is the sanction of our parents you wait for ere, you are willing to give me a reply - I hope you will not hesitate to reply to me in this way - that you are willing to unite your destiny with mine on the consent of our parents - And such a reply from you I will have here in may next and see you at all events by the middle of July I have no doubt of getting the immediate consent of our parents shortly after my arrival - no more doubt of it than I have I now pen the contents of this sheet Then only say you are willing to be mine if our parents have no objection - say so, and my hand and heart are still open to receive under their protection the only bosom I ever loved the object of my premeval love - yes where'eer I am, whatever part I bee [be?] - My heart dear Margret [Margaret ?], fondly turns to thee - When we are married I will retire from all public business ; my time will be spent in the company of my Margret [Margaret ?] with one continued glow of affection and esteem - will the tender heart of your Joseph Watch over you - your happiness will be his constant care, your comfort his real consolation. In the winters we will spend our time as I now do at our house in Augusta, which is 80 miles from Crossanchors ; there will we enjoy luxuries and pleasures of life, mid the society of our friends and theatrical amusements - In the summer we will retire to the more fertile shades of crossanchors there to participate of the rural enjoyments that place so abundantly and so luxuriously affords - I will promise you even more - you will never see your Joseph disguised in ardent spirits I can say with a truth that I have never been disguised in spirits since I came to this country - nor never will. My servants will obey your commands with agility and with satisfaction to you - you can order your carriage whenever you are so disposed it will immdially [immediately ?] be brot [brought ?] out with fat horses -and servants to wait on you - I promise you still more and that is my own unchanagable affection - also that we will go home and see our father and mother whenever it is your ardent wish - I send this letter enclosed to Rodert - he will give it to you, and you may depend on his secrecy to all intents and purposes - If I am to spend my days without you ; do my dearest Margret [Margaret ?] - tell me so candidly at once, treat not the purest affection and esteem ; that of your Joseph, with silent contempt O do than teach my nature to subdue Runaunce my love my life myself - or you Till my fond heart with God alone for he Alone can rival, can succeed to thee. If our parents do withold their consent (which I hope they do not) you are certainly not acting consistently to be governed in such a case -it is your own happiness and the happiness of no other you have to consult - Read Buckans domestic mediam in speaking of love page 120 - Robert will give it to you if you ask him I presume - I hope you will not delay your reply [Torn] an immediate opportunity of forwarding it by hand fear will "post pay" it to Dublin and it will come to me in the packet - Do not delay it let me intreat you - I have no doubt it will breathe all that affection of some which will constitute a willingness to be mine - O purest affection ! thou art a companion which no misfortune can distress, no enemy can aleniate [alienate ?] ! no despotism can enslave. In solitude a solace in society a felicity - thou art a chastiser to vess a guide to vorture - thou west at once a grace and goverance to genuis - without affection what are we ? Splendid slaves reasoning savages - vacillating between the dignity of an inteligence [intelligence ?] derived from God, and the degradation of passion partes sported with brutes. Please direct to J. Carswell Merchant Augusta . Georgia America - by the way of Dublin. The only letter I ever [received ?] from you was dated 16th sept. 1821 [which ?] I take to be almost equivalent to one acceptance of my proposals - you say "Robert Recd [received ?] a letter from me - and you are sorry that I did not intend to come , had you known that you would have been provided for " You are provided now with the affection and love and person and property of your Joseph - such property I do say with secrecy to you and without boast as few possess in that country - property for which I am only indebted to my own exertions therefore I know how to take care of it - If there yet remains one glow of affection in your breast for me you will not delay an answer .- Yours with unchangable affection and esteem Joseph Carswell.Close