Henry Johnson, Canada West to Jane Johnston, Co. Antrim
Niagara District, Township of Grantham. Canada West, December 3, 1848. My Dearest Jane Since I wrote to you from Hamilton which letter I hope you received I have travelled many a weary mile in search of a situation such as I had been accustomed to I was greatly annoyed with my box which I was obliged to leave behind me in a farmer's house in which I had been stopping for three weeks waiting on a school that I was going to try for the winter but after a great deal of trouble & time spent I was obliged to give it up as I could not make as much out of it as would pay for my board I then packed up a few shirts in a small travelling bag & started on my feet I knew not at the time where to it is useless to tell you the fatigue I underwent or the heart breaking I suffered in my travels amongst strangers in a strange and wild country it is enough to say that after wandering through the principal towns of Upper Canada and trying every means in my power to obtain a situation of any kind I have at last lighted into a farmer's house near the far famed falls of Niagara where I am doing a little work for my board and washing I have not got my box here yet nor cannot untill [until?] the rivers open up in the spring so that I will have to buy some clothing for the winter which is very severe I have five persons in different places looking out for a place for me about here so I may get one in a week or I might not until spring as business is nearly all closed up in winter however when I think of the way I came out without a friend before me or a single letter of introduction to any person I cannot grumble much that I have not succeeded to my wish It was a great mistake in me coming away without you with me as I am perfectly confident had you been with me I could have settled down at once and done well and made money it cost me more for washing travelling &c than would have kept you and the children comfortable for a year provisions are so cheap I suffered a good deal from the bowel complaint and at these times of sickness my heart was like to break thinking of you and the children and not a creature to give me a drink or a word of sympathy. As some lone bird without a mate My weary heart was desolate I looked around and could not trace One friendly smile or welcome face And e'en in crowds was still alone Because I could not love but one. Well Dear Jane after all when I look back on the past and see the many errors I have been guilty of I am content that God has punished me and led me by a way which I knew not and although my present situation is not the best yet I am more content in it than ever I was at home when I was harassed by creditors and the tongues of slanderers no matter what kind of place you are situated in here you feel a kind of independence you can never have in the Old Country and neither man nor woman need want here who are willing to work and conduct themselves properly drinking is the curse of this country as well as our own many a dreadful case & consequence of it I have seen since I came here In order to save myself from temptation I went to the Presbyterian minister in this place and took the temperance pledge so that as far as that is concerned I am safe and if I had you out here I think I would be happy persons coming out here at first are very much annoyed and discontented untill [until?] they get settled down and then they like this country much better than the old Farmers having about œ100 to start on, labourers who are young and able-bodied, tradesmen & mechanics, young women who can go to service, dress-makers, bonnet makers &c have all a fair chance here to make money and live independent, rents, poor rates and so on are unknown here to the farmer, the servant eats at the same table with his master and altogether it is a better country every way for those who have any kind of independent feeling I cannot give you much more description of the country than this as I have not been long enough in one place to form a very strict opinion but generally speaking the above is my mind on the matter what is very strange since I left New York until I came here I did not meet a single face that I knew and when I got this length nearly the first person I met was Thomas Lyness & the wife they are living a few rods off the house I am stopping in a small shanty - 25 acre of land partly bush which he holds a five years lease of at 4 $/ per acre. I have heard his history since he came here and a most miserable beginning he had untill [until?] this last year. He has been in great poverty and I may as well warn you now to beware of the most of American letters you may hear as they either greatly overrate the matter or through ignorance put a false face upon the nature of things altogether. Dear Jane I would scarcely have written at this time until I had got some kind of better situation to give you an account of but that I am very anxious to hear from you and know all that had happened you since I left the country. I hope Dear Jane you sometimes think of me in pity & sympathy as you have never been one moment out of my thoughts and it grieves me greatly sometimes that I am not in some situation where I might be making something for your support however I still have confidence in myself and the providence of God that he will protect and support you & make me what I have not been yet a good and providing husband for you. Write immediately when you receive this and let me know without any reserve all that has occurred since. I see things past in a very different light now besides as I viewed them at home and I believe I am by the blessing of God a better man. I am very well treated in this place and since I came I am strong and healthy. I am 14 lbs. heavier than I was when I left & I can go into the bush and chop a log with some of them I think if I stop here much longer I will be a pretty good Canadian Farmer so that I am not altogether losing my time. I could get 25 acres of land here same as Thomas Lyness has but I need not attempt anything of that kind untill [until?] you are here with me if such a thing is allowed. I was about trying the pedling [peddling?] but could not do so without paying œ5 for a license the same in January I may try it in that time if nothing better turns up. You can write to me how you will be prepared to come out in the spring and who you will get to come with you as I am afraid you could not manage the children yourself however I can give you directions in my next letter when I receive yours tell me how Wm. [William?] McKeen and family are doing and where they are living if I settle here you could come to their place & stop untill [until?] I would go for you. This part of Canada is a great deal better for farmers and others than where they are. The winter is not so long nor cold nor the summer so hot. My Dearest Jane, I will conclude with this I could fill a quire of paper in writing to you but my present space will not permit more you will observe the directions below. I am now as ever Your faithful & affectionate husband untill [until?] death Henry Johnson Henry Johnson To the care of Mr. John Heany Niagara District Township of Grantham Canada West. P.S. I forgot to say that there is living in the house here a young woman married to a fellow the name of Gibson from Mr. Chaines She was formerly a sweetheart of your friend there beside you. Sam Whiteside and her Aunt who is the Mistress here says that she is very sorry that she did not get Samy as she thinks he would done better than the one she has got don't forget to tell Sam this her name was Betty Ann Andrews. She lived at Cloverhill once. Dearest Jane don't forget to post pay your letter as if it is not it will not arrive here there is a dispute between the American and British about the letters unless they are prepaid they will not sent [send?] them in writing say many things in few words as that I will get the more news My Dearest Jane God Bless you H J. Addressed. 1/2 Paid. 1/4 Mrs. Jane Johnson Dungonnell Near Antrim County Antrim Ireland (Postmarks): Niagara De. [December?] 7 1848 C.W. [Canada West?] Kingston Dec. 10 1848 [U.C?] ______________ single sheet ______________Close